grieve in the middle of happiness

16 dec 2008

was my birthday.

the time when i feel much loved, and surrounded by a lot of people, friends, family, siblings, who loves me and care for me..

thanks for all the bday wishes.... really really really appreciate that.. thanks for making my life much more colorful and valuable.. =D



16 dec 2008

was the time when one of my high school friend has passed away.

Ricky A. Setiawan, has passed away on dec 16th 2008, because of pendarahan otak (i dunno what the english version is)

he was still young, early 20, and just about to begin his life, his career.
as far as i know, he just knew he was sick on monday, and he was in critical condition, and only the day after, tuesday, he has passed away...

so soon, huh?

so sorry, in the middle of my happiness, there is a lot of people grieving..

personally i dont really know him, but when he is gone, somehow i feel lost, and make me think a lot..

kita nggak akan pernah tau umur orang, dan nggak akan tau kapan dan bagaimana seseorang akan pergi ninggalin kita. jangan sampe ketika seseorang itu pergi, yang ada hanya penyesalan.. penyesalan karena belom ngelakuin something, ato karena masih ada hal yang belom diselesaikan..

ketika temen gw ini meninggal, FS nya penuh comment dari temen2 yang mau say goodbye, or sekedar ceritain kenangan sama ricky.. dan, semua comment itu isinya positif, karena mengenang ricky sebagai teman yang baik..

hmm.. gw jadi mikir, kalo suatu saat nanti giliran gw dipanggil pulang, gimana ya reaksi temen2, sodara, famili gw? apa gw udah melakukan hal yang baik, be a blessing for my family, friends, siblings, and leaving a good memory in everyone's heart who know me? i wish i could see their reaction.. hehehe.. sangat kepo ya..

well, i guess, reaksi orang2 nantinya akan ditentukan oleh sikap dan gimana hubungan2 gw yang skrg dengan mereka.. i pray that i could be a blessing to whom i love, whom i care about, and to whoever knows me.. =)


so, thankiu Ricky A. Setiawan.. may you rest in peace.. thanks for being a part of my life, and making my life much more colorful..and even when you're gone, i still learned a lot from you.. thanks... say hi to God from me hehehehe..


Rest in Peace,
Ricky A. Setiawan on December 16th, 2008

drunken guy and woman on the street, what will u do?

kemaren ini nonton oprah, awalnya ga sengaja sih, tapi ternyata menimbulkan inspirasi buat nulis blog.. hahahaha

karena ga ikutin dari awal, gw ga gitu ngerti awalnya, tapi kira2 oprah kali itu ngebahas tentang reaksi orang2 kalo diperhadapkan sama masalah kasus tertentu, dan ngeliat tingkat kepedulian masyarakat sana (yang jelas di USA, tapi ga tau tepatnya dimana)


here is the case,
if there is a drunk guy (about 20 something--err.. actually im not good to predict someone's age hehe) at the street, in the middle of the day, and he is going to drive,. what will u do?



i think, kalo kejadian di jakarta, reaksi orang2 adalah..(at least, reaksi gw adalah) who cares? mind your own business.. rite? ato gw nya aja yang terlalu egois ya? haha.. tapi gw rasa, kalo di jakarta, bukan sesuatu yang sangat membahayakan kalo seorang mabok mau nyetir, terutama karena itu bukan urusan kita.. salah2, malah dianggep kepo ngurusin urusan orang.. betul?

then, gimana reaksi orang2 di amerika sono? orang2 barat terkenal dengan individualisnya kan? so, seharusnya mereka ga peduli donk, ngeh aja mungkin ga..

well, i was wrong..

ternyata, eskperimen membuktikan kalo mereka peduli. mereka berusaha dengan berbagai macam cara buat melarang that guy buat nyetir.. mulai dari menawarkan bantuan, sampe cerita tentang anaknya (or siapanya lah) yang meninggal gara2 nyetir saat mabok, dan dia bilang sama si cowo, "gue ga mau kejadian kaya gitu nimpa elo..gue aja yang ga kenal sama elo mau peduli sama elo. seharusnya lo lebih peduli sama diri lo sendiri"

keren ya? gw sampe terharu sendiri nonton nya.. ngeliat orang2 saling peduli satu sama lain, even sama orang yang ga dikenal, itu suatu hal yang sangat mengharukan.. so sweet.. hahahaha...


eksperimen kedua...

if there is a drunk woman with her children, and going to drive, what will you do?



ini masalah gender sih, kurang lebih, tapi ternyata hasil eksperimen menunjukkan kalo orang2 lebih cepet ngeh, dan lebih ga ragu2 buat ngelarang si cewe buat nyetir. kalo di eksperimen pertama, orang2 notice tapi agak ragu2 dan hati2 buat bertindak, di eksperimen kedua orang2 lebih responsif. mungkin karena ada faktor si cewe lagi bareng anak2, i think orang lebih cenderung peduli sama anak kecil.. (ini asumsi gw).

beberapa bapak2 langsung deketin cewe itu dan setengah maksa untuk ngelarang cewe buat nyetir. kalo di eksperimen yang cowo, orang2 bertanya, "can i help you?" or "do you need some help?", di eksperimen kedua, begini respon orang2, "Ma'am, you re not going to drive on that condition".. see what i mean with "setengah memaksa"?

dan begitu bapak2 itu ngedeketin si cewe, ga lama orang2 lain pada kumpul, buat ngeliat apa yang terjadi, dan mereka juga ambil bagian dalam ngelarang tu cewe buat nyetir. jadi, kaya terbentuk tim kecil dengan misi yang sama : ngelarang seorang wanita mabok dengan anak2nya- yang mereka ga kenal sama sekali- supaya dia ga menyetir. satu orang dari bapak2 itu ngambil kunci mobil si cewe, supaya dia ga bisa ngotot buat nyetir.. wah, kok keren ya.. sangat amat peduli.. padahal, itu bukan urusan mereka..


entah kenapa, tayangan itu berkesan banget buat gw.. terkesan karena ternyata di negara barat yang notabene sangat individualis, ternyata masih ada orang2 dengan tingkat kepedulian tinggi. kalo gitu, harusnya kita di negara timur, apalagi yang -katanya- merupakan bangsa yang ramah, lebih peduli daripada orang2 bule itu kalo dihadapkan pada situasi yang sama. ya nggak sih?

tapi, miris rasanya, gw ngebayangin kalo kejadian itu terjadi di jakarta.. what will happened? gw sih skeptis ya ada orang2 yang segitu pedulinya sampe ngelarang2 orang ga dikenal yang lagi mabok buat nyetir.. apalagi sampe ngotot ngelarang.. yahh.. gw masih bisa membayangkan kalo 1-2 orang yang coba berbuat baik dengan ngingetin orang yang mabok itu, tapi kalo tu orang ngeyel, gw rasa si orang baik ga akan segitu ngototnya..


sedih aja ngebayanginnya.. padahal kan indah banget ya kalo satu sama lain saling peduli, walo ga kenal...

yahhh.. ga tau juga sih, apa gw nya aja yang terlalu skeptis dalam menilai ya.. hehhee



-amadea

an instant answer

there is time when i became soo mellow... if u think i am a really melancholic person, there is time when -even for myself, i became really really really mellow hahahaha...

and a couple minutes ago was the time..

belakangan berasa mumet bcoz of many things, it's like facing one (or some) of your biggest fear..and it's make me scared...

i just admitted my fear, my doubt, my worries, my problems to Him, yet, still trying to be tough, still trying to have a faith in Him, still convincing myself that He will make everything all right in His time..

and you know, i receive an INSTANT ANSWER! hahahahaha.. unbelievable! He is really a Mighty God..

just opened my new edition our daily bread, and on the first page, here comes His answer..



Waiting For Joy

A large part of life centers around anticipation. how much we would lose if we were to wake up one day to the unexpected announcement: "Christmas in 10 minutes!" The enjoyment in many of life's events is built on the fact that we have time to anticipate them.

Christmas, vacations, mission trips, sporting events. All gros in value because of the hours we spend looking foward to them -eagerly running through our minds the fun, challenges, and excitement they'll bring.

i think about the value of anticipation and the thrill it can bring to the human heart when i read Psalm 30:5, "weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning." The psalmist is declaring the comforting idea that our earthly sorrow lasts but a short time when compared with the anticipated joy that will begin in heaven and last forever. Paul pens a similar idea in 2 Chorintians 4:17, where we discover that our "light affliction" leads to a glory of eternal value.

For now, those of us who weep can dwell on hope instead of hopelessness and anticipation instead of sorrow. it may be nighttime in our hearts, but just ahead lies the dawn of eternity. and with it, God promises the endless joy of heavenly morning. -Dave Branon

tribulation, grief and sorrow
are but heaven's steppingstones
to a bright and glad tomorrow
where no heartache can be known -Glass

we can endure this life's trials because of the next life's joys.




waaa... keren sekali.. suddenly it's like my heart is lighten and brighten.. it's like i see my problems from a different persepective, and suddenly it's not really hard anymore.. it's not much to fear about.. waaw....

thankiu..thankiu..thankiu.. really really thankiu my Jesus...

gw jadi inget di film Batman, ada kata-kata yg intinya seperti ini, 'malam paling gelap ketika fajar (dawn) akan datang,'

so, be patient! endure in sorrow, in problems and keep the faith.





weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning. -Psalm 30:5